i've been living my alone trying to get you out of my life rather that asking people to help me out but after all this time i can't help myself but miss you. you're once a dream that came true an illusion that turned to reality but suddenly, things turned differently the way they used to be until such time i have no choice but to let you go. you're the reason for my sleepless nights coz you keep stayin' on my mind plus talking to you on the phone every single nights sometimes. till i willing to put my ignorance towards my own roommate. disturbing her sleeps. i can't help myself from crying coz i'm missing you so much........
all the pain & sadness are bound inside my heart, all the memories are still preserve in my mind. i miss you so much coz i can't hide the fact that i'm still syg you like before. my life will never be the same again now that you're gone. i'll be trapped in this loneliness forever unless a guy like you will bloom into my life again. but we both knew that it wont never happen...i thought this was a letter i would never have to write, i hoped my tongue was something i could bite. i've realized its just something i cannot do,
Here are my feelings, just a few.
first, i'm still so syg with you, after all this time, you told me the same, then it happened, what a crime. time has passed, everyday you're on my mind, our loves are shaky, what an omen. i do not know what to do. my mind is blank..it gives me pressure. i can't do this special friendship thing anymore, so off i go. the pain of going to lose you is still fresh in my brain, even after almost 2 weeks, everyday my heart feels the pain. will we ever be together again, i say as i sob and mope as each day passes, i lose a little more hope. i'll always syg you. plz hold these words true. don't hate me for this, this is what pain is making me do. my heart is broken in so many a part. so do you. do i still have a place in your heart?......to be your best cool buddy :)
